
How it feels as a child can be unbearable I've been there My father exit my life when I was just 4 days old all because his mother said he needed a vacation and did not come back till I was 8 months. Him and my mom separated he has been in and out of my life now for 6 months to 8 months sometime, he always come around in new trucks, high price clothes, and an I don't care attitude. He dump me on my grandmother and my mother's head was always in the clouds she couldn't take care of me neither. Years pass I get older without him around it's like this people say there's other kids out there that have it just like you and I'd say "no" I'm the only one. I had therapist come to school and talk to me, my grandparents would even try to as they say spoil me I did not care about all those material things all I want to be with was my dad. Before my 18th birthday he came around to just show off his Hummer I said "Daddy My birthday is coming up in a week can I have a car". He said how old are you gonna be.... 18 "I'll see but your gonna be grown so I don't have to pay child support no more" and the truth is he never did he didn't come around nor help me with my graduation stuff nor went to my graduation. He also has other kids not buy marriage with different women and he always give them everything. Now really getting to the point of this Article to be unloved I got accepted to an art college because I'm a artist some people say I'm good. I go to fill out the application and sit in orientation I get my books, pens, even the backpack with the school logo on it. All set I have my grant and my year round train ticket now I wait for my loan information to come back. The financial aid lady walks in and says sorry the loan fail to go through my grandmother ask why she says there are a lot charges to my name for credit cards, cars, apartments, light bills, gas bills and etc. All done but my father he has been doing this since I was 4 years old he never care I now see this I'm 21 years now without a name of my own. Did I mention my name was similar to his he still uses me now I don't see him hardy I can't buy a house or a car if I wanted to. In someway when my dad treated me like I was nothing it made me strong when I was a child it also made me grow up so I never really had a great childhood because the whole time other kids played outside I stay inside and Isolated myself." I was always serious and unhappy" Really My dad made me stop being a child, made me realize I can't depend on anyone. "My dad made me grow up".